Well.... as the title depicts this post is all a result of some retrospection...
Exams and failures are events which enlighten one's intellect exceptionally, raising it to eclectic levels.... I've no explanation why but some failures leave us with some of the most cherished moments of our life... And why I'm putting up all this crap over here again has no specific reason.... exams often have such side-effects...
Just reviewing my profile I found out that I've been pretty inconsistent on this account of mine, however the statistics are not the very same if it comes to FaceBook or Twitter.. but today I'm here.. the credit goes entirely to Java Beans and their Introspection.. I guess not even God knows who devised all this stuff but I cannot abuse it... after all thaz what is going to earn me bread in future ;)
Well so practically I'd almost given up this blogging n 'diary'ing fad... juz coz it was only bundling up my moronic self.... these damn fucking exams have this real virtue of replenishing every that tiniest of your self when you should be supposedly focusing on books... Resisting all this swarm finally I broke up and dedicated almost more than three hours retrospecting a good span of my bygone days with the white wall of my room.... which I'm absolutely clueless how attains an ecstatic spellbinding attraction. Everything in that blank wall becomes so meaningful, all of a sudden that wall is capacitated enough to animate all your thoughts intertwined in a way thaz much more occupying than the best of the ambiences...
Sothis time my mighty wall flashbacked me to thosse sweet n chirpy days when life used to be incredulously simple n awesome... this flashback was basically inspired in a 40 min travel in the metro when by a matter of chance i indulged in the whackiest journey of my life...
Life has indeed changed a lot... There was actually a time when the slings in the mind were outright blurted out... Slings started puzzling criss cross n we evolved to be mmore civilized... with all those mannerisms every word came out with a thought, with a concern and more were we entangled in the cobweb.... Niw life seems more like a age-old web, we don't have a spot to be blatantly outspoken n thence we come to shelter ourselves in this Web :D seems ridiulous.....
This is no melancholy but a state of self-scoff... We defy hypocrisy, in denial of mediocre existence of self yet.... compromise has become the buzzword.... "Accept life the way it comes, welcome it with a smile" has become the ideology of life..... What the fucking hell are we trying to knit up.....
Well this transit from Introspection in Java Beans to retrospect one's own state in diverse scenarios led to a profound introspection of self..... Nervousness n stress do this to everybody I guess.... nothing else yesterday it was merely an accentuation to watever crossed my medulla in the metro that morning... In the crux, as I can sort it out, the soul is still that straight till now which loves to blurt out its expression with unmatched honesty buu the gray matter has proliferated quite spuriously and has worked out a chore of calculations.... with intentions totally diverse
Moments become memories when the soul overpowers these manipulations and the strength of such times makes life worth living.... I guess thaz y people proclaimed to be mentally weak always own a genuine smile to adore their faces....
Just trying to visualize the case when calculations were non-existent.... may be memories wud've lost their charm..... after all the good is good only if we know how being bad is......
"In the knowledge of the worst resides the experience of the Best......"
ooops spooky lines of intellect.... post exams effect i suppose... evolving the writer in me at 0300 hrs in the what to call it 'morning or night'..........
